The fact that I know his family would love for us to end up together; the fact that I have my best friend's and his sister's approval; the fact that I've never ever let him go in spite of myself; the fact that I forgive him for everything he's ever done; the fact that I know what he is capable of and don't even care; the fact that after all these years he still asks about me and regrets what didn't happen between us; these make it really hard for me to sleep at night.