Do you want to change your career?
Well isn't that a doosy.  Yes?  No?  Maybe?  I mean, obviously I don't want to be an afterschool coordinator for the rest of my life; but I'm thinking more along the lines of the big picture.  So I will rephrase the question.  Do you want to change your major?  If you are reading faithfully, you will know how many problems this question is not only causing me now but has caused me in the past.  The truth is I don't know.  Right now I think I am so smothered by the stress of my job and life (or lack there of) and school and my quest to be pure again and find a mate and a bunch of other bull, that my brain is a swimming mess of "what the hell is going on?" and "will anything ever make sense again?"  I just have to have faith that it will.  In my experience, I have learned that whenever I go through these crazy crises something happens.  Be it good or bad, that something is always a game changer.  I don't know if this something will be an outside force or self inflicted.  I suppose I will just have to wait and see.  I'll keep you posted.


Do you wish you lived closer to a certain someone or group of people?
Yes.  I miss my family.  I want to be with them always.  I'm not saying I want to live with them because that would be ridiculous.  And I guess I don't necessarily want to be so close that I tire of their presence.  But I do miss them.  I miss seeing Becca grow up.  I miss talking to my mom all night.  I miss Eric dancing.  I miss shopping with my sisters.  I miss watching the Discovery Channel with William.  And I really miss my grandparents.  I've started thinking about summer because spring is near.  And that makes me think of last summer.  Which was so nice.  Truth be told, I loved living with my grandma and grandpa.  Getting fat because they always took me out or made me nice meals.  Talking with them late at night.  Sleeping until 1.  Working at Gold's.  I really miss Gold's.  I don't know if I mentioned it, but I quit.  It was a whole crazy story that had to do with Recharge and I will perhaps write the whole thing down eventually.  But I miss baby Brielle.  Well, toddler.  Anyway, that was a tangent.  I wish I could conjure up my family whenever I want without having them around when I don't.  Also, it would be nice to live near Nichele.  At least for a bit before her mission because not seeing her for 18 months is going to suck.  And then she's gonna get married and I'm going to be an old spinster.  Also a tangent.  Like I said above, my brain is swirly.  Short answer?  Yes. 

Do you wish you lived in a foreign country or a far away state?
And this answer completely nulls the last.  Yes.  Always.  I always wish I lived in Britain.  Always.  I have only spent two days of my entire life there.  I had swine flu.  And it was still magical.  I love the music, the theater, the films, the atmosphere, the history.  I just want to be in Europe and explore.  And I want to raise little British kids with little British accents and marry a handsome British man and live in a cottage on a farm not far from London.  I would like to research my family and find our far away relatives.  I want to have tea time.  I love tea time!!!  I make an effort to have tea time everyday anyway.  But it is so much nicer in Britain.  Everything is nicer in Britain.