Is there an award or accolade you have always dreamed of winning or being recognized for?
And this is where I become a four year old again.  I want to win an Oscar.  Preferably for Best Actress or Best Actress in a Supporting Role, but really any Oscar would do.  I have written multiple acceptance speeches.  I know the likelihood of winning this award is slim to none.  But one can always dream right?

Do you feel blessed or lucky to wake up each day?  How can you get to that point?
It's so funny how quickly things change.  3 months ago I would have said no.  I would have said that some days, it's hard to get up and appreciate life.  But now everyday, I do.  I think it's because of Kris.  I'm so lucky to have him in my life.  And every day when I wake up, I think of him and it reminds me that good things do happen and even though life is hard, there is always something that makes it worth it.

If all your debt was forgiven tomorrow, and you had a completely clean slate, what is the FIRST thing you would change about your life?
I would buy a better car.  I would go to a better school.  I would buy a new wardrobe.  I would move to a better house.  I would learn how to manage money better.  I guess I should do that now.  I'm working on it.  I would get approved for a credit card so I could build my credit and secure my future.

Where are three places you have thought about living but never did?
New York City.  I wanted to get a nanny job there, but when the opportunity to go to D.C. came up, I ran there hot foot.  Right now it's just too expensive to even entertain the idea of living there.
Greece.  I would love to live amongst that history, that ocean, that art.  Oh what a life that would be.
Seattle.  For a long time this is where I wanted to end up.  I couldn't tell you why.  I honestly have no idea what makes me want to live in a town where there is so much rain.  But it is beautiful.  And it seems like it would be a lovely place to go.

When do you want to retire?
Right now.  Hahaha.  No, I think I would like to retire at 55.  I would like to go back to school then and get a degree in Art History.  It is a completely pointless degree right now, but when I retire I can travel to the places where the art is and have my pointless completely for my self enjoyment degree.

5 more questions to go.  I can't believe it has taken me this long to actually get through them.  I'm ridiculous.

So. . . I'm in love :D

I'm in love, love, love, love, love!  With Kristopher Sean Stephens.  He is so wonderful!  He makes my life a bajillion zillion times more incredible.  I love every single little thing about him.  He lives in Many Farms, AZ where he teaches English at a Navajo Junior High School.  I know right?  I met him at the Grand Canyon over Spring Break in March.  And yes, it is moving CRAZY fast.  But I have never felt more sure about anything in my whole life.  He treats me better than any other man I have dated.  He cares about me for ME, not just for my looks.  And that is a wonderful feeling.  I think I'm going to move to Arizona to be closer to him.  Flagstaff, to be more precise.  Northern Arizona University is a great school with a great Education program.  If I can figure out how to get the money to move there and pay tuition and find a job and a place to live, it's a done deal in August.  But no matter what I'm moving.  Because I love him.  And I want to be near him.  Because a 5 1/2 hour drive sucks balls.  And a 3 hour drive would be much better.  Still long distance, but better.  So yeah.  I thought I should let ya'll know.  Life is good.

Do you feel energized when you work?
Um, when my boss isn't there.  When she is, I feel like my very soul is being drained from my body out of my eyes.  She is a joy sucker.  And the sad thing is, I know she doesn't mean to be.  She just doesn't know a lot about life and people and common manners.  Which is strange because she is more than twice my age; and yet I feel like I know so much more about life than she does.  She has never really had want for anything.  And so the prospect that I may have to have a second job or donate plasma is preposterous to her.  And I want to be able to say she is a good woman who means well because I really think in her closed minded little brain, she does.  But she is so self involved that she doesn't really follow through with her good intentions.  But when she isn't there, I feel like I have the freedom to do my job and get things done.

Do you feel creative when you work?
Not really.  My job isn't a terribly creative one.  Since I work through and get paid by a grant, there are a very strict number of regulations I have to follow.  I have very little free room to expand and implement the awesome ideas that I have.  I have been able to once in a blue moon.  Like, when the kids were learning about ancient Egypt, the lesson plan I came up with was brilliant.  They mummified apples, made cartouches, and learned about gods and goddesses.  It was a little more brilliant than it sounds.  But that was truly a blast.  And it makes me think it might do me well to be a History teacher.  Who knows?  Not me, that's for sure.

Describe what you consider work and what you consider play.  What are the differences?
Work is doing something that you have to do in order to make ends meet.  It can even be something you love, but if you have to do it to survive, it is work.  Play is something you do in your free time that you enjoy and don't feel pressured to do.  You don't have to do it for anyone but yourself.  For some reason, I consider answering this question work.  I think it's because I love my blog and I enjoy writing it.  But in order to complete it, I have to answer questions that don't interest me and that I find mundane.  Like this question.  A means to an end.

Oh Danny Elfman; you never cease to be incredibly insightful.

"We Close Our Eyes" by Oingo Boingo 

We close our eyes
We close our eyes and dream and the world has turned around again

When everybody is running in the big race
And having a good time
Who am I to cast a shadow
Who am I?
I looked Death in the face last night
I saw him in a mirror
And he simply smiled
He told me not to worry
He told me just to take my time

We close our eyes and the world has turned around again
We close our eyes and dream and another year has come and gone
We close our eyes and the world has turned around again
We close our eyes and dream ...

And if you come to me
And if you touch my hand
I might just slip away
I might just disappear
Who am I?
And if you think I'm worth it
And if you think it's not too late
We might start falling
If we don't try to hard
We might start falling in love

We close our eyes and the world has turned around again
We close our eyes and dream and another year has come and gone
We close our eyes and the world has turned around again
We close our eyes and dream ... 

We're on the healing path
We're on a roller coaster ride
That could never turn back
And if you love me
And if you really try
To make the seconds count
Then we can close our eyes

We close our eyes and the world has turned around again
We close our eyes and dream and another year has come and gone
We close our eyes and the world has turned around again
We close our eyes and dream ... 


We close our eyes and the world has turned around again 

What do you find challenging?

Math and Science.  Fo sho.  My mind simply does not comprehend certain aspects of these academic fields.  It is also very challenging for me to hold my tongue in certain situations.  Many situations in fact.  I'm a very opinionated person and have an incredibly hard time keeping my opinions to myself.  I'm also really, really bad at having self-control.  I don't think about consequences before I do something.  Also New Year's resolutions.  Those are incredibly challenging.  Pretty much failed every single one.

What do you find thrilling?


And this is where my lack of self-control comes in handy.  I am thrilled by adventure.  Who isn't?  And because I don't think about consequences, I often times live in a world of adventure.  I also am very thrilled by living vicariously through characters in books.  Especially Katniss.  She rocks.

What are three memories you haven't yet created but you would like to?


It is very hard to plan your memories.  But there are a few that I think many people aspire toward.  Here goes:
I would love to remember graduating from college with my degree.  That would be nice to have in the past and look on with warm fuzzy feelings.
I would like to remember my wedding day and the joy that will (hopefully) come along with it.
I can't wait to remember giving birth to my children.  I am told that the moment you first hold them in your arms and realize you have created them is both absolutely remarkable and terrifying.

Are there things in life you wish you could reverse or make right?


This is tough.  I don't believe in reversing or rewinding things.  That doesn't mean I don't have regrets.  But I don't think I would want my regrets to be taken away.  There are, however, many things I would like to make right.  But I don't think I will.

• Make up with Marco.  Be his friend again.
• Talk to Marc.  Tell him what he meant to me.  And how he hurt me.  
• Cut off Drew's balls.
• Tell Alina the truth about what happened and see if it changes anything.  
• Tell Amanda I finally understand.
• Yell at Travis.  Then thank him.

I know I won't do these things.  At least not anytime soon.  

Do you feel like you have enough money to live the way you want?

Is it just me, or have I answered this question?  A million times.  No!

Are you happy when you think of the upcoming day and all that comes with it?

Not everyday.  I'm only human.  There are definitely days when I wake up and want the day to be over already.  But there are also those days that I know are going to be absolutely amazing.  But those are both fairly rare occasions.  Generally, when I think of the upcoming day, I think about everything that needs to get done.  Then I think about how to best postpone those things.  Then I do them.  And spend my time instead being happy about my upcoming life :)